still clueless

I still am clueless with some things that have happened and are currently happening with my life right now.

Don't get me wrong. I am aware of the fact that sometimes we need to be hurt just to be strong again; we need to stumble for us to eventually move on; and we need to experience things way beyond our grasp so in time we'll learn to trust ourselves again and face the world head high.

What I learned now is that I have only a handful of "trusted" friends. Forget Friendster and Multiply; most of them were just former classmates anyway. I guess I came to the realization that real friends won't talk behind your back of silly things, that though may not be true would hurt you after all.

I also try to erase the fear in my mind that next year I would have to work double time just to pay the bills. Yes, this is big deal for me! Mostly because I am sure that I am alone on this one.

And lastly, I know I should put an end on this never-ending daydreaming for a certain someone. The heck!

I am strong. I'm in control. And despite the fact that everything seem to be messy at present, in the end I am certain that things will go my way.