REBIRTH

I have decided to blog again this year, hence the title.

I've been on Multiply when I decided to skip posting on this blog site. And then there's Facebook. Need I say more?

This year, I wanted to blog about my thoughts and my everyday battle with the gift we call LIFE.

So many things have happened since my last post. I'm an orphan now, I live in my very own house, I'm loving my job more and more (albeit sometimes less and less), and I'm gaining friends and critics as well. But I'm okay, at least that's how I think I am. :)

I have yet to face severed ties but I've started to include those people in my prayers. Slowly I'm getting there.

For now, I'm living my life the best I could, with the means that allow me to. I am grateful that along the way, I have friends to keep me sane in this journey that I hope to be worthwhile this 2011.

To start with, let me share stories from my pre-Christmas and New Year breaks.

Christmas was spent at home with tons of relatives coming to spend their Christmas at home. Gifts were appreciated and I'm happy to see them while they each open their boxes and smiled thereafter.

On December 26, I was asked to be a godmother for a neighbor's son. As people always misjudge me to be a snob, I've come to terms with the fact that we can't always people.

Let's just say I don't blend well with the neighborhood. First, most of them are married people, families who've decided to buy their own place even at the expense of leaving the comforts of Metro Manila. Second, I have nothing in common with them. These women don't work and are often seen gossiping outside their houses or tending to their little ones.

At the reception, I was seated at a table with the rest of the godmothers who are apparently 'married'. As I quietly eat my lunch that time, one woman said: 'Nol (family nickname), ang tahimik mo naman...ay ikaw lang pala ang single dito!' Being the calm-as-needed person that I am, I just smiled and finished my meal. Thereafter, I went to another table and chatted with a family which is the humblest in the street in my opinion. These people are the only 'true' friends I have at home.

If only my 'mataray' side showed that time, I would have replied: 'Correction lola, si Nol lang pala ang walang anak dito. FYI, may anak kayo lahat pero hindi lahat kayo married. Case in point, look at yourself KABIT!!!' I used to like this girl, tsk tsk! Problem is, most of the members of her family are gossipers, especially her mother.

On New Year's Eve, I've decided to spend it at home with my aunt despite countless invitations from relatives. I'm a firm believer in the saying that you should welcome the new year in your own home. But contrary to our Christmas eve where we cooked all of our meals, I've decided to just buy RTE food and assorted fruits for the table.

The same girl above has planned a New Year's Eve party for our street. I wasn't asked neither for the potluck nor the monetary contribution for the videoke and the game prizes. Not my loss really. And I think it was a great move for her for I was bent on declining whatever invitation from her anyway. Plus, I don't see the rationale in joining. My aunt is 71 years old who wouldn't enjoy a party like that. And I'm not the type to act 'plastic'.

So there, I spent New Year's Eve inside our house, watching the news on TV and savoring the more than enough food for me and my aunt.

But what freaked me out was that at 5AM, the teeners were still belting it out!!! I would have come out of the house to scream at them, but part of me says that their parents should have been the ones to ask them to stop, or at least the party organizer (her sister was the one constantly holding the microphone!).

We were able to sleep around 530AM and skipped breakfast just to catch up with our lost sleep. But lo and behold, the singing started again at 10AM!!! They only stopped past 2PM when the machine was taken, thank goodness! There's even someone who sang like she's having an orgasm and read the lyrics to 'I'VE FALLEN FOR YOU' as 'I've pollen for you...' Iha, you mean pollen grains?

I went to church that afternoon and when I came back my aunt told me that one neighbor asked why we didn't join the party. Nagkukulong daw ba kami? That's it! I officially conclude that my neighbors don't have anything productive to do than meddle with other people's lives. I've never done this people wrong, and our being quiet is like a mortal sin to them. SCREW YOU!!!

Then last night, I attended a BINGO BONANZA, with proceeds going to the completion and expansion of our parish. As expected, I was the only one from our place. Oo nga naman, busy sila sa tsismisan!

I was fortunate to get a seat. Most people just sat on the ground. Even before the games started, my gaze was glued to an elderly woman who stood a few persons in front of me. Darn, no one was giving her a seat! There's this mother with her two 'big' sons (big because they're both on the healthy side and they're not more than 12) who were not actually playing. Talk about being a role model and teaching your kids values huh! One time, the mother and one of her sons left their seats, probably to use the restroom. The old woman saw this and asked the boy who was left behind if she could sit. AYAW NG MOKONG!!! Nakiusap pa yung matanda sa kanya! Afterwards, she was allowed to seat but only for less than 5 minutes because the mom and the other boy returned. That's it! I have to do something. I moved my seat and asked the people on my sides if we could share our seats with the old woman. After we sat her beside us, in a few minutes the mom and the two boys left their seats, for good. BAAAAADDDDD!!!

I hope to blog on positivity next time. But I'm not promising for life is full of cruelty lately. Ciao!