musings

"Lahat naman tayo kelangan may ginagawang bago from time to time para habang gumagalaw ang mundo, pati tayo INSPIRED sa buhay! Tingin ko talagang gumagawa ng way ang pag-progress ng TIME para maayos ang mga bagay na dapat ayusin, malimot ang mga bagay na hindi na dapat iniisip, at mabigyan ng chance ang mga bagay na makabubuti at makakapagpapasaya sa atin! Tama ba? "

– from kooki.multiply.com

I've been contemplating lately... and by this I mean a lot! The message above is from KC Concepcion's multiply site. It kinda hit me in the face, you know! CHANGE is really something people should work on, but only if you think it would be for the better. That is what I need right now. I'm not bitter or anything. I just believe it would be healthy and all the more invigorating.

Last Sunday, I attended the first birthday of an "estranged" friend's daughter. I was hesitant at first, for we haven't talked for more than two years. The reason for our conflict is really a petty one, yet the kind that actually ruins most friendships.

My decision to go and attend her child's party can be attributed to Rick Warren. I've been reading an e-book of The Purpose Driven Life these past few weeks and it made me realize a lot of things. Here is the lesson that moved me to finally do what's right: "Because life is all about learning how to love, God wants us to value relationships and make the effort to maintain them instead of discarding them whenever there is a rift, a hurt, or a conflict." – Day 20, Restoring Broken Relationships

We can't bring back the past, and there's really no use crying over spilt milk. We actually didn't have enough time to talk, but I'm sure what happened that day would be a start of something new for us. We're planning to meet up before Christmas. And probably by then we could finally put an end to whatever it is that still bothers us both. And you know what... just seeing her child kinda erased every pain that she has unintentionally given me in the past.


me, bhitz, and mitch
inset: bhitz and ayesza

Meanwhile, there's this certain song by Nina my officemate has been asking me about lately. I must admit I'm just like her. I can't seem to let go of a certain melody whenever I hear it and it eventually stays inside my eardrums. Most of the time I find myself going straight to a computer shop and have that song downloaded. Am I a freak or what?

Here's the song:

someday
nina

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see this though my eyes

By then I won’t even be there

I’ll be happy somewhere

Even if I cared

I know you don’t really see my worth

You think you’re the best guy on earth

Well I’ve got news for you

I know I’m not that strong

But it won’t take long

Won’t take long


Someday someone’s gonna love me

The way I wanted you to need me

Someday someone’s gonna take your place

One day I’ll forget about you
Someday, someday



Right now I know you can tell

I’m down and I’m not doing well

But one day these tears they will all run dry

I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye


Someday someone’s gonna love me

The way I wanted you to need me

Someday someone’s gonna take your place

One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday I know someone's gonna be there


Talk about strong lyrics, huh! I really admire the air of positive thinking this song portrays. Now the question is, "Do I find myself relating to this song?" In a way, I do. But it's actually not for someone in particular, but for all those who gave up on me without even realizing how extraordinary I am. Go girl!!!

Ciao by now!