Ever heard of the AGE 28 SYNDROME?

"You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Somebody who doesn't complicate your life. Somebody who won't hurt you." - Dr. Finn Dandrige to Meredith Grey

I need my knight-and-shining-whatever! And by that I mean right now.

I'm usually not the type who would fret about silly things that really do not matter...at all. But when I turned 28 a few days ago, it just dawned on me how boring my days have been. Yes there were moments I spent with friends, but it's an entirely different thing. When some friends were complaining before about "their clocks ticking" I usually just shrugged my shoulders. It's an altered scenario now. I call it the "age 28 syndrome".

I've seen enough, experienced enough, achieved enough, or at least this is what I think so, for now. Of course I still have my hopes and dreams. And someday, somehow, I will be able to accomplish them. It's just that I feel like I have so much more to give, so many things to offer, and yet no one else to have it. Am I not entitled to happiness? I'm not saying that being in a relationship is synonymous to being happy, but then hey, at least I'm more confident now and more mature than ever. If I get hurt eventually, then so be it. Nobody said there aren't bumps along the way.

A friend recently told me to give my heart a chance; that at least I let myself be happy this time. Forget about the compatibilities whatsoever, and that I just allow myself to savor the feeling right now. For someone who has always counted intellectual compatibility as the greatest qualification, I guess I'm willing to compromise at this point in my life. And yet another thing bothers me – financial security. I believe most women would agree to me on this one.

I grew up in a not so well-off family. My mom struggled just to send me through college. And up to this day, were still in the state of "just getting by" every day. And I'm tired of that. I know I'm not lackadaisical when it comes to my profession and God knows that I'm working so damn hard, and I intend to do it for as long as I could. I'm just being honest about this since I am left to pay the bills (not most of them anyways, but next year I probably will). I just want to make sure that the one I will be settling down someday would offer me some kind of security that I wouldn't have to tire myself up and look wrinkly even before I turn 40. I need to be assured that my kids will be well provided and that from time to time we'll still have enough money to spend for out-of-town trips or even a picnic at the park. It would be silly of me to ask for a tycoon, and I guess I wouldn't even match to their types, huh! But really, are these too much to ask for?

Moments are indeed what make me beam lately. Exchange of words aren't even necessary. But am I getting across?

To sum it all up: FOR CRYING OUT LOUD...!