My Lullaby...

These songs are my lullaby lately.

Breakdown
Mariah Carey

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

Chorus:
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave me this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

[Chorus]

Yeah, c'mon
Yeah, c'mon, c'mon
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll roll along
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll along

It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it
Forget it

I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down
Kickin' me around
Stressin' me out
I think I better go and get out and let me
Release some stress (stress)

Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Oh, i just wanna maintain

Yeah, when you feel the pressure's on
But nevertheless
Krayzie won't fall
It's over
It's endin' here, here

[Chorus]


Have You Ever?
Brandy

[Chorus] Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right? Have you ever, have you ever ?

Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand? Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You'd give anything to make them feel the same? Have you ever searched for words
to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start?

[Chorus] Have you ever found the one You've dreamed of all of your life? You'd do just anything to look into their eyes Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to Only to find that one won't give their heart to you? Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there? And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

[Chorus] What do I got to do to get you in my arms baby? What do I got to say to get to your heart To make you understand how I need you next to me? Got to get you into my world Coz baby I can't sleep… [Chorus]

Last night I'm glad I was able to relay to a good friend what has been bothering me lately . Thanks, sis! I really need some release. Feels like my head's spinning.