hoping for a new chapter

Here I go again. Someone has made my world upside down!

A part of me says stop, and another part says seize the moment and enjoy it while it lasts.

I want to stop because I feel like I'm belittling myself everytime I throw myself on him.

I want to continue since I honestly am enjoying every minute of it all.

Now the question is: Why does it always happen to me? A few days ago, while chatting with a good friend of mine, I told her about this new event in my life. It came to a point when we discussed the words "love" and "adore".

I know I promised not to talk about this anymore. But right after our chat, one very important thing occurred to me. It dawned on me that what I felt before was just ADORATION - an adoration gone terribly wrong! . But as they say, it's all in the past.

It's back to square one for me. But this time, I know it's more of "like" than "adore". And before it reach the point where I'll lose myself in the process, I'm letting go of this feeling. Goodbye to closeness, sweet nothings, intentional jokes, and uncalled for messages. And above all, goodbye to flirting!!!

Another chapter ends... yet I hope that the next one begins soon. And that this time it would last forever!