This thing called enjoy-for-the-moment!

Below is another heartbreaking reality I received from e-mail. It kinda reflects the situation I'm in right now. It's actually longer but I decided to just choose the parts that I could perfectly relate to.

Reasons Behind Feelings (an excerpt)
by Blessie Duque

Whether we dare to admit it or not, if two people spend enough time together, often times feelings get developed. It may not be as strong as falling in love but the attachment and passion is still there.

When feelings grow, there may be times where one feels more than the other. That person might get emotionally attached without wanting those feelings in purpose.

And in order for things not to get spoiled, that person would usually try to control how he/she feels especially if he/she does not have a clear understanding of where he/she stands in the other person's life.

People who are in this kind of predicament typically put their guard up in fear of rejection; in fear that the other person would not feel the way they do; or in fear that if they reveal their real intentions and feelings, the other person might lose interest. So they get content just staying in that situation without having any emotional involvement; with no strings attached and no obligations. But deep inside they hurt, they cry, they wonder. On the other hand, they remain involved maybe because they hope that they would end up having an intimate and meaningful relationship with their partner (dream on!)

Some may be so infatuated with the other person that they would mistakenly consider how they feel as being "in love". They get so blinded by each moment they spend time with that someone because it makes them feel good and wanted even for just that instant. In the bottom of their hearts, they long for that person to care for them the way they do.

The truth is ... nothing will change the way that other person feels for them. It will be no more than just a physical attraction, an enjoy-for-the-moment kind of situation. It sucks doesn't it? But that is reality. You could never make someone like you, care for you, or love you. You could only give so much but in the end if that other person still doesn't see you as someone they could spend real time with, you have to learn how to cut him/her lose because you will end up just playing the role of a "meantime" boyfriend or girlfriend, no more no less.

Reasons of the heart sometimes can never be explained. We do what we feel because we know what makes us happy, even if it means taking the chance of getting hurt over and over. We tolerate pain, we endure heartbreaks, we hold on to instances that need letting go, we sacrifice, and we take risks notwithstanding the consequences of our actions. As we all know, life is full of uncertainties. And we, as human beings are always scared of the unknown. So we hold back from doing what we think is right because it means that we have to get out of our comfort zone. It puts the fear inside us because we are dependent on the feelings we have for that someone. We forget how it is to live without them because we are so used to them being around us. We become inconsiderate of our own feelings that we sometimes fail to remember that things just don't work out the way we want them to...no matter how hard we try.